Tardigrades – aliens among us

Waterbears are incredible, yet strange creatures. Most people don’t know anything about the excistance of tiny little bear look-alikes, who live in moss cushions, grass, under water and in solid ice and are lesser then a 1 mm in size. Tardigrades come in different bright colors, orange, red, green and are equipped with eight leggs, and two knife-like teeth, which they use for stabbing the plant and sucking the juices out. These little animals are the hardiest animals on earth and can be found anywhere around the globle. They withstand the pressures of vaccuum, they can survive in absolute zero and boiling water, they were even sent into open space, in a TARDIS programme (tardigrades in space), where they survived full ten days, before safely returning to the ground.

The secret of tardigrades lies in their amazing ability to hibernate – when they sense that the environment becomes unfriendly, they transform into a little ball, which – like a self sufficient microsystem – withstands the agressive environments, radiation and other harsh conditions. All they need is just a tiny drop of water to come back to life. Some believe that tardigrades were the first to colonize the planet Earth, due to their extreme survival skills, they could have possibly travelled to us on an asteroid from outter space. In theory tardigrades could be able to live forever and despite their discovery back in the 18th century, these little animals go unnoticed in most biology books. Puzzled? Check out this interesting link if you want to know more http://www.microscopy-uk.org.uk/mag/indexmag.html?http://www.microscopy-uk.org.uk/mag/artjun00/mmbearp.html

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Salty chilli-pumpkin soup

Rejoice ye all! It’s a season of pumpkins, mushrooms and delicious soups. I came up with my own pumpkin soup recipe, which is not sweet, like the majority of the pumpkin soup recipes 🙂 All experimentation went well, except for a lol accident, when my blender exploded the hot bullion all over me and the kitchen…. :S Don’t ever blend hot liquids in a tiny blender! Nevertheless here it is, against all odds, salty chilli pumpkin soup:)

Salty chilli-pumpkin soup

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Me on a motorcycle

I love bikes, speed and the endless roads! Driving is trully one of my favourite activities, and I simply cant get enough of it! Here are some pictures of me on the bike in summer/spring2012.
Me on honda

Me on honda 2

Me on honda 3

Me on Kawasaki in a biker store in Kiel

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Overpopulation – apocalypse tomorrow?


How many of you have actually thought about this topic lately? I bet not many. To be honest, the only reason I even stumbled upon it, was due to a friend who mentioned it, and after I researched a bit about it, I was terrified of HOW serious this issue really is. A fact is a fact – the world IS allready overpopulated. We are 7 billion at the moment, but will be almost 10 in just 38 years – that is, we are spreading in exponential growth. Yet earth is not infinite, there is a limit on how many people it can sustain and feed. Unfortunately, there is no awareness and no goverment policies at this point to stop us humans, from spreading like a virus. People believe that it’s their right to have as many babies as they want, not thinking where they are bringing that life into! The religion, traditions and belief’s that one HAS to have babies are not helping either. Just think about it, each SECOND at least 4 humans get born, but only 2 die. That is an insane number, concidering that at some point we will be waaay too many. We are talking in the next two generations time. What will happen when we will be too many? Remember what happens to mice, when they invade some yummy field..they multiply, thrive and eventually die of hunger. So the nature has it’s way to bringing everything back into balance. Except when we are gonna experience a similar scenario, it won’t just be a balance kind of thing, but a catastrophe for the humanity. Perhaps even a mass death of billions of people.

Unfortunatly ,not many people care about responsibility they have towards others in this world. I can imagine what kind of outrage a ban on having more than one child will spark in a society. I really really HATE the backward attitudes people have towards having children. It is almost considered a blasphemy NOT to have one. People do it simply for their own selfish needs – to play mommy and daddy, not thinking of the consequences for the whole world. There is alot of pressue in particular on women, especially in eastern countries, where having a baby is womans mission on earth and her biggest value. I have seen this attitude come from my own eastern girlfriends, who all had babies by the age of 23. I even heard my own family member utter that abortion is a sin and that her friend – a successful lady without children – is a shallow, selfish woman, because she doesn’t have kids and she only wants to spend time on herself. My other family member would have exact same kind of views and would point out that her old friend too had no children and therefore died lonely and with no family around. These stereotypes are just absurd! First of all, what is wrong with living the way you want to and doing things for yourself? Second of all, saying that you get kids just to be taken care of is kind of a selfish statement in itself. I myself has been bombarded with annoying questions on when I will have a baby, to which I reply with a rude expression: “Never!”. Can everyone please stop looking at me like my greatest asset is my child bearing organ? Sigh.

Even more annoying though, is the attitude of many families with children, who arrogantly belive that they are so much better then everyboy else, that they are entitled to things (inc. having more babies) and that those without kids are someone to look down at. Jesus freaking christ people. You are not the only ones who can procreate!

Anyhow, the logical conclusion is – we are FUCKED.  Literally. With this babyboom in society, the lack of policies on this matter and the lack of social awareness we are doomed to have a real apocalypse one day in this comming century. The outcome seems inevitable. It has been proven that the effects of human overpopulation will be devastating and they allready are. Take polution and global warming. Multiplying in endless numbers will mean we won’t have enough food, water, gas, housing and life quality for us al and what will happen then? Lawlessness, crime, warfare, starvation, canibalism and finally survival of the fittest. I see a real life “Resident Evil” movie. Do your math and think extra hard before putting another human into this world, would you want him/her to live/die in such mass-extinction conditions in the future?

I wish this wasn’t true and I really hope that all I have written here is just paranoia. You are free to believe what you wish, but if we won’t do something about this NOW then it will be too late.

If you catch yourself going into disbelief or panic mode, here are some usefull links to concider investigating:  http://www.lucidpages.com/doom.html



World Population counter which displays in Real Time.

A different view at overpopulation:


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Krokodil Drug, Oksana Makar and human cruelty

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It’s trully disturbing what levels of degeneration the humanity can reach sometimes. There are some very depressive things I have read lately online and the first one I want to mention is the new, so called krokodil flesh eating drug. I found an article about it after a friend told me a horror story about drug addicts who start rotting alive with flesh hanging from their bones and other NSFW stuff. It was trully shocking to see the graphic photos which clearly show the devastating effects of it on people and even harder to imagine that in Russia alone over 2 mio of people are heroin addicts and are doomed to live horrible, short, meaningless life, with little to no happiness, hooked on such a strong substance, that they are willing to rot alive, for a short moment of pleasure and escapism.

Here you can see some photos of what happens to people with addiction to desomorphine. BEWARE THIS IS EXTREMLY GRAPHIC NSFW CONTENT!!! http://russlav.ru/narkotik/narkotik-krokodil.html

I have personally known a drug addict myself, a 35 year old man who has been on drugs for over 20 years, and who has tried everything from meth, acid, lsd and mescaline, to crack and heroin. I can say that in that short time I have known this in fact very pleasant and generous, yet sick person, I have experienced all the gross reality of being in that enviorment, the addicts have to face every day- it’s a sad, horrible and repulsive reality to live in, a life full of crime, jails, rehabs, lies, loss of interest in anything besides the quick fix and excistance in dirty, cold, public toilets with yellow flickering lights and soapless sinks.

Futhermore, that was not the first time I came in contact with a drug addict. The problem is so severe in Russia that every other person seems to be affected by it. One of my girlfriends dated a pusher who has been on cocain for most of his life. One of my relatives in Russia has passed away after an over doze of heroin addiction, my own grandparents have experimentet with phenozepam and vodka mixtures at a point, making them unadequate and hallucinating and a family friend has died from certain prescription pills with morphine, which he also mixed with vodka. They ate up his brain and this otherwise quiet and frail person ended up in a mental hospital where he needed four people to  restrain him. He died shortly after. My girlfriend had a similar story, her parents died from alchohol abuse, and her sister, who was a well-read, intelligent girl, got hooked on drugs by a pusher boyfriend. She ended up stealing and going to jail for that, contacting hepatitis and tuberculosis in there and remaining sick for life. My otherfriends companion was killed by a couple of desperat for money addicts, virtually for 50$. When I think about all these people, I realize how much more serious and global the problem has become. And here I’m only talking about the hard drugs, not the “everyday” ones like marihuanna, which half of my neighbours and high school was hooked on.


Picture taken from https://twitter.com/acirn_E/status/312135945329729537

Yet it’s not only the new perversions of the drug world that are distrubing, it’s the human reaction to it. Unfortunately, most of the population of the world has forgotten the word “compassion”. The comments I have seen on the net are way nastier then the images of flesh necrosis. Things like “it’s their own fault” or “they deserve it” shocked me with the coldness, cruelty and lack of empathy we should be able to posses as normal healty individuals. The fact that the individual who doesn’t posses sympathy or emotions towards others is concidered a sociopath/psychopath only makes me wonder if ‘Im actually living in a world of psychos.

Worser even is the fact that some people seem to trully believe that caring and feeling sorry for someone is measuarble in grams and can only be used in moderation. I have witnessed people in Russia become so hardened and ignorant over the sad realites of Russian life – homeless children, dogs and old people – that no thing seems to penetrate their careless outter shell. The belief that being compassionate is ruining one self with useless (!) sadness is in fact much more traumatizing and harming for human psyche then a reaction of pain and sadness for someone elses sake. When an individial learns NOТ to care, as a self defense reaction, he/she also learns to accept all the cruelties and horrors of the world. This is merely a step away from actually starting to feel empowered by carelessness – starting to enjoying the suffering of others, and learning to harm others yourself.

It’s hard not to notice how in many cultures the promotion of cults of violence, stength and mercilessness go hand in hand with sadism and gore crimes. Just one example of this is the Russian popular tv series about corrupted cops “Gluhar”, who abuse their power, beat up and torture criminals, or whoever they believe deserves it, and yet turn out to look like hero’s in peoples eyes. Here the borders between justice and sadism are blurred. There is a clear parralel between “eat or get eaten” mentality and extreme sadism and violence we can observe in such cultures. The effects of such beliefs are devastating. Not only are people TAUGHT to be desensitized by pain of others, they also learn to harm others as a means of surival and domination, which in their mind puts them out and above the danger zone – because everybody knows the best defense is attack.

Picture taken from http://uldissprogis.com/tag/force/

This reminds me of a horrible case, where the lack of any sort of morals or humanity has reached enormous proportions. This is the case of a young Ukranian girl, Oksana Makar, who has been raped by three young men, then strangled and put on fire – only to survive and suffer another week before dying from her fatal injuries. Her offenders were initially set free, because they were the kids of high post officials, but after the huge public response they were arrested and interrogated. What shocked me was of course the same response I have read in most of the comments – things like “that whore deserved it” or “she should’nt have gone home after drinking with three men, what was she thinking off” made me wana scream and tear my hair out with frustration. I could simply not believe that people were so heartless and cold and cruel. Anyone who belives that any type of prostitution or sexual behaviour or drinking is punishable by gangrape and murder is not any better then the murderers themselves.

Perhaps that explains why there is still so much horror in the world – if that’s what the majority of the population thinks, then we have not reached anywhere since the antiquity. The Oksana Makar case and the response to it also shows just HOW less the womans rights movement has achieved and how quick to judge and unenlightened the society is remaining. Not only are girls sexualized at an early age, thus prompting the sexual crimes agains them, they are also victims of double standards and scrutiny, carefully examined for any signs of “inappropriate behavior”, which can somehow lead to conclusion that it’s their own fault and that they should have known better. Not only does the society encourage girls to behave sexually and pleasing, it then also punishes them for it.

I stopped visiting the site of “People” magazine few years ago for the same exact reason – another series of angering comments to an article where a young girl has dissapeared leaving a bar at 3.00 am. Most of these comments claimed that it’s her own fault if she got murdered or raped, because a proper nice young lady wouldn’t have left the bar drunk at such time…… This left me speachless. Somehow it’s hard to believe that it’s ONLY internet trolls that are posting such responses, even though I would love to belive that.

Picture taken from http://weusuew.blogspot.com/2013/03/krokodil-droga-zumbificadora.html?zx=c7b30fa6ee5e9051


This brings me to yet another sad case, the famous Russian Pussy Riot group – a group of three girls, who have offended Russian church by making a public, provocative performance in the cathedral in Moscow. The reactions of the so-called christians were insane, they were ready to stone these poor girls, because they insulted the dignity of the church and god knows what. The ones who suppose to forgive and show mercy, are basically the ones who are ready to murder in Gods name. This is why I despise any religious fanaticism, clearly it serves it’s own ignorance and pride, rather then the humanity and the good. The girls got two years in jail, for such a lame “crime”. I was shocked to hear my own grandmother say how they are “sluts”, and how they are insultive and should be put away in jail for another incident, in which they were apparently having group sex in public. It was sad to hear so much hatered and anger in her voice, as if public group sex should be equalled to forever-offended-ego and disrespect of the highest proportions, only expiated by suffering itself and not just a simple unpleasant ew-and-embarrasing kind of thing/moment. She judged me for feeling sorry for them, because they didn’t deserve my mercy.


Another thing which is worth mentioning is popular belief that making someone guilty of something suffer would make them realize, understand, repent and become a better person. I’m not sure where such irrelevant, unlogical belief stems from, for I do not know one person who has become better from humiliation, violence and punishment. There are many jails in the world in which prisoners (2/3 of which are often addicts, poor people who had to do crime out of poverty or mentally ill) find themselves living in unberable, inhumane, horrifying conditions and statistics clearly show that prisoners do not become more civilized of filled with love towards humanity, when or if ever leaving those walls. I wonder if people who criticise “luxurious” or healthy living conditions in jails are filled with vengeance or are just simply as cold blooded and heartless as the murderers themselves.


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